Three days ago I was told that my Marie passed away a week earlier. I am in shock. I didn't know that she was sick. I didn't know that she had been fighting cancer for 2 1/2 years. She didn't tell me. Why didn't she tell me?
This website blog is just for me to deal with the sudden realization that Marie is gone/ to create closure for myself. For the past three days I am trying to breath and trying to understand. So ultimately if I am honest, this blog is not about Marie at all. It is about me and my thoughts and feelings in trying to work through losing the person I felt I was closest too at the time. In fact, that time was 13 years ago, not recent. But, my belief is that all time is now, all memories in my head are now. Memories don't pass along the linear timeline that we live through our lives.
I have to figure out how to respect Marie's privacy. I set up this website to be non searchable and anonymous. Google and all website crawling spiders will not search and record this website. It will not be searchable. No one will be able to find it through Google and AI should not be able to find it either. I will not use her name and any pictures I use will be my own pictures that have not been on the internet so they should not be searchable either. This website is just for me to record my thoughts about Marie then and now.